I woke up to an sms. a surprising one. as usual one's mind will neva get to rest again after a surprise msg.
be it good or bad.
it was bright, so decided for a jog in de new trainers - winking at hasri :p. Hyde Park. a huge park is just a few minutes from de hotel. a pleasant jog is always a guarantee at de park. even though London's weather is so unpredictable coz after a bright entrance, it turned cloudy. Still it was a pleasant jog,walk,sit in de park.
through de park, i thought, its fate. meant to be with each other. but i did come across a quote - Fate is for those too weak to determine their own destiny. well, im a muslim and we are to believe in Fate. And so, yes it is Fate. i do hope though u will be stronger to determine any other things after this Fate.
im not really sure how u are really. i mean we neva had a close relationship as siblings. i tink none of us did. its too many of us, i suppose. im sure u agree wif me that sumhow we are so much more comfortable talking abt wat we think and acting de way we really are wif frens. wif others but among us.
wat do i know abt u? i knew it was u who blew de lil' green beans wif your straw at me. i knew Mother dotes on u, she gave you $ for u to go to de dentist! when i was 15, i got to know from a lawyer fren about u wif some frens. neva really found out wat had happened. i was angry.was embarassed too, but since it was such an uncertain case, i didnt care. was too innocent to probe, prolly. i dun tink u knew that i knew anyway. then i saw pictures. by then i was goin thru de-im-18!-life-phase and was sumhow glad that im not exactly de black sheep of de family. heh. i kinda fancy de ex. coz of de betta vibes that surrounded her. i shared a little secret session wif de current one once. but quite an impression she gave after sumting not huge but significant that made me wonder wats de number behind her head. it was small. ok smaller than mine. i neva believe that maturity comes wif age. but i tend to be lenient to those who acts like their shoe size. heh.
anyhow, all that dun matter now. i shall lower my head to whoever coz u are my brother.
de pictures i took at Hyde Park that day were so coincidental, i feel. err..corny too hee..but yup. i just thought its very similiar..
these swans just cleaned themselves and about to take a dip..even though de weather dun look that good, they didnt take a shelter under de bridge..they went ahead to de other side of de lake. prolly coz they knew that de weather is so unpredictable and so they took de chance.
u n her, clean, starting afresh again and going ahead against de odds. and since everything is so unpredictable nowadays, we, and im sure i speak on behalf of my sisters shall pray for the best.
"Happiness, that grand mistress of the ceremonies in de dance of Life, impels us through all its mazes and meanderings, but leads none of us by the same route." by C. Colton.
luv-luv,
just a lil msg and wishes from de littlest sister.
luv her but loathe her father. heh.